Okay, so it starts like this.  I had initially planned to come back here today and tell you about the great message that the Lord sent down to me through Pastor Chuck.  I mean, all day yesterday and the day before I had been feeling super good.  God is good, right?  Right! 

Yea, well, the devil does not quit.  When I tell you, he doesn't stop harrassing folks, I mean it.  I can overcome it, I am just saying the devil is a hard worker.  Sometimes harder worker than me.  I need to look at it this way.  I need to look at the devil's hard work and use it for motivation to step my game up.

Anyhoo, so, I was kinda down about my money situation.  I planned on coming on here sulking and playing my WHERE'S MY MONEY YOUTUBE VIDEO.  Well, as you see, I still did that.  But, then I got a message from a young lady in Belgium.

Hey Poetri,

My name is Melissa. I'm from Belgium.
Just wanted to say that I think you're great.
I watch you every night on youtube.
The same pieces over and over again, I know what you're going to say but you still make me laugh every time.
I just found out about Def Poetry Jam. You and Shihan are my favorites.
I'm a little bit down now, but then I watch you and you make me happy.
Last night I was watching Def Poetry Jam till 3 o'clock, I had to force myself to go to sleep. I didn't feel good but after watching you, I went to bed a little bit less sad.
So, that's all why I came here for
To thank you for putting a smile on my face before I go and sleep

Take care
Love

Melissa

Now, I don't mean to brag or anything, but I get letters from fans all across the country.  I am kinda smooth like that.  Maybe it is because of my sex appeal that I have on women.  HAHAHA.  I ma not sure if that made sense, I have never used it before out loud.  So doggonnit forgive my english.  For some reason, this one stood out.  Maybe, cause sometimes I take the fan letters for granted (a lot of people write me with a compliment and a request to get on Def Poetry Jam).  Maybe it was just GOD.  But, one of the church messages this past SUNDAY was to have more confidence in myself.  And I was just about ready to get down on myself and write all this negative stuff about my life and my situation and how bad it is, and how sorry for myself I am and blah, blah, blah...and along comes this sweet e-mail from outside of the country about how I make her smile every night.

"Maybe" is not the word.  It was definitly GOD.  I need to look out for these things.  I need to appreciate all things more.  I need to look for GOD in all things.  HE is there.  As much as the devil is out there...GOD is out there a million times more.  I am so tired of being down.  I don't need an e-mail every fricken day to pick me up.  I should pick me up.  I am a CHILD OF GOD and if that ain't saying something.  NOTHING IS!!!

 Now, I still put the "MONEY" thing up on the journal cause my money situation is still what it is.  But, that doesn't mean I need to walk around moping and not hoping.  HAHAHA, I sound like Jessie Jackson.  Today through the rain, I will smile the whole while.  When my water runs cold in the bath, I will laugh. When I eat my food, I will remain in a good mood.  (Geesh, that ain't hard.) Hmmm, one more.  I need to close with a good Jessie.  Hmmm...When I open the doe, I will walk into my rainbow. AHAHAHA

Yea, so that is it.  I still haven't gotton around telling you about the whole serman.  But, I will try tomorrow.  But, you know how I am.  Something will happen that will take precident.  I tend to live in the moment.  Right now, I am about to go cry.  HAHAHA.  Just joking.  I am about to sigh.  Cause I am over all my cry-ing.  Man, this is getting crazy, I can't stop rhyming.  

Alright, then PEACE, have a blessed day and I pray that I am walking out of this part of my life that has been so hard.  I feel like I am.  I feel like I am.  ONWARD MARCH!!! 

Halleluayah.

Bless me indeed and enlarge my territory.  Keep your hands on me and keep me from my enemies so that I may cause no pain.

Keep it Natural.