I wonder.  I really wonder if I am insane.  I mean, I need to go read other people's blogs and see if I am insane.  Do other people go through roller coasters in life as much as I do?  I mean, if I could delve into the consciousness of everyone reading this and read their mind like it was a journal...would you sound crazy to me?  I am pretty sure that I sound crazy to whoever reads this one.  That is probably why I get so many readers...everyone likes to read that someone else is insane.  And I am starting to believe that I might be insane to the 3rd power. 

So, I woke up today wondering really hard if I am doing everything I can to get everything I need done.  Am I being a  good daddy to Genesis?  Am I spoiling her too much?  Or probably a better question, am I NOT spoiling her enough?  Do I spend enough time with her and on her?  What about Juren?  Am I there for her?  Does she know that I appreciate her like I appreciate breathing every day?  I don't think about breathing, so does that mean, I take her for granted and really not think about her as much as I should?  Do I just expect wonderful and incredible things to get done by her? 

What about the ever so puzzling question about my career?  Am I doing all that I can to succeed?  Should I be back in acting class working on my craft all the time?  Do I have time to do that?  Am I a good actor?  Do I have what it takes?  I know that I am funny to people on stage.  I am not sure why, but for some reason people find me funny.  But, can I act?  Do I spend too much time on the computer than praising the Lord?  Why am I back on eating wrong?  What is wrong with me? 

I have got to dedicate myself on this day to really re-evaluate my goals and my purpose in life.  I remember having and knowing my purpose when I read THE PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE.  It was a life changing experience.  I have found though as I have gotten older that my life changes a lot.  I have a lot of life changing moments.  Is that normal?  I thought I was supposed to have one or two, but not 30!  And I am still young.  I could have about 100 by the time this life is over.  Am I gonna keep having life defining moments all the way up until I die?  So, I need to go back to the Purpose Driven Life Changing Experience and remember my Purpose.  I get distracted to easy. 

Well, speaking of spending time with the family and in the word.  Allow me to go.  My daughter is up and talking the language only she understands and I haven't spoken to her yet this morning.  She walked yesterday.  I am not talking five steps.  She walked all the way down the hallway.  We filmed it.  I might have to post it for you.  Also, my wife is up now.  Allow me to go and be a husband and a daddy.  Please Lord.

Bless me indeed and enlarge my territory.  Keep your hands on me and keep me from my enemies so that I may cause no pain.     

Keep it Natural.

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