I finally made it here safely.  Whew.  I sit here in the Howard Johnson inn...safe sound and secure.  The next 24 hours is going to be hectic and incredible.  Halleluyah.  Thank you, Jesus.  I so wonder why HE chose me for this...and yet, when big things in my life DON'T happen I complain and wonder aloud why HE hasn't done something big for me.  This is the confusion I call my life. 

The devil is a big reason for that.  He is so good at his trickery, he takes happy moments and times in my life and somehow gets me to concentrate on the negative.  And when I grab ahold of that...geeesh, it is over.  Just ask my wife.  She will tell you.  Ask my two year old...she will tell you.  You could even probably ask my five month old...yep...she will spit up on you and then probably spit a dope poem about how her daddy is crazy.  I need to control the devil.  I need to let him know who runs this body...not him.  ME. 

Take today for example.  Here I am about to embark on one of the biggest days of my life...MEETING THE FRICKEN PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA...THE FIRST BLACK ONE, AT THAT.  And I have the audacity to be discouraged.  I shouldn't be discouraged for one doggone minute. What do I have to be discouraged about?  Don't ask me, cause I type out a list...but this particular reason was probably the most outrageous. 

I am shooting a documentary.  I am following myself around on this journey to the White House.  It has been cool.  Today at the airport, there were a lot of people around watching me film myself...folks were asking me questions and stuff.  I suddenly got this feeling in my gut that I wasn't real.  That I was acting.  And when I turned the camera on all day today, I felt like I was putting on a show.  Performing.  And this is not what I want to do with this documentary.  I am an out going, crazy person.  All who know me, know that is true.  But, I have another side that is serious.  You hardly ever get to see that...cause I am always on.  The red light is always on and I am always in front of the camera of the eyes of America.  But, I am doing this documentary so that my kids can look at it and see their REAL dad meeting Barack Obama.  This is not a show.  This is not a game.  It is real.  I want to be as honest as possible and today I felt in my heart that I was performing for the people in the airport and I got discouraged. 

The devil is good, I tell you.  Cause that led to me thinking am I am good daddy to my children...am I a good husband.  I hustle so much to keep food on the table...I wonder if I am putting enough time into my family.  Will my daughters grow up saying...yea, daddy was around, but not really present in our lives?  So, here I am getting ready to go meet the first black president and I am on the plane crying.  Sad.  Mad.  Discouraged.  How does this happen?

This time...this story has a happy ending.  I picked up the Bible that I almost forgot to bring and started reading.  Really reading and studying the WORD.  I read the Bible allllll the time, but I hardly take the time to study it, really pray about what I read and really try to understand what GOD is telling me.  I need to do that more often.  Cause I came off the plane refreshed.  Even though, it was real late cause we left an hour or two later than we were suppossed to, I was happy.  Even though, in the cab, we got lost...I wasn't nearly as upset and worried as I would have been.  God protected me.  HE is good like that.  Halleluyah.  Now I am about to go to bed...JOYOUS.  And then wake up ready to see the 44th president.  Ready to shake his hand.  Ready to drop a poem if need be.  Ready to be me...the honest to goodness me...yay.

But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.

Keep it natural.

Hi
Nice words, real cool a u say it over there, like a country song. Here in Kenya we like healthy because we dont fear food.
...as for the Bible we are reading once more...it is a new thing each time,each day.

Wow. thanks fo rthe love allllll the way in Kenya. Yes, and please keep readingt the WORD. It is food for our bodies.