...so my wife gets a call from a mutual friend today.  She says she is calling to check up on us.  She was a little bit worried cause on my Facebook status I always have a sad status.  This is not the first time someone has inquired about the sanity of my status updates.  I appear to be losing my mind sometimes.  My wife agreed with our friend that I should stop doing that ALLLL the time.  Stop letting the world know every single thought in my mind.  Cause I be having some crazy thoughts...and if you read the thoughts and didn't get to know the thought giver...whew...you would think I was...well...crazy!!!  People will start to worry that I am depressed or that I am not happy with my life, my loving, caring and smarter than me, wife says.  The truth is...I DO get depressed sometimes...I am not happy with my life a lot of times.  Times are hard and I am much harder...on myself.  I am an unperfect man trying to live a perfect life.  NOT GONNA HAPPEN.  But, that is not the whole story...

I write on impulse.  If I am mad for a second about the traffic, I will write how mad I am in my status.  I might not necessarily write that I am mad about the traffic, but I will write that I am mad.  So, basically what I am saying is...a lot of my status's (or stati)(plural for status) are misread.  I am not depressed the whole day...I am just depressed at that moment or mad at that moment.  The problem is...I don't write happy status reports when good things go right.  They happen all the time to me, I just don't happen to be by my phone or a computer at the time...and plus, I am too happy to write about it.  When I am mad, I concentrate on the anger and then write it out.  Like right now!  UGHHHH, I just tried to take a sip of my water and spilled it all over the desk...ughhh...if I were writing in my status, I would write that I am so mad and my desk is wet.  GET it.  I write on impulse.  Now wait a minute, lemme clean this up...the desk...I am talking about the desk...lemme clean the desk up...

Whew.  What was I lying about?   Oh yea.  I forgot that people take my status's serious.  Maybe I should.  I mean sometimes...well a lot of times when I am writing about the LORD...yes, that is dead serious.  But so many times, my status updates are just that.  An update...and that update is very mad that I spilled my water all over the desk.  NOT THAT MY WHOLE DAY IS RUINED CAUSE I AM MAD THAT I SPILLED THE WATER ALL OVER THE DESK!  But, I will say that I need to stop getting mad or sad so easily.  In a way, folks are right.  I should be more positive, in general.  I need to focus on the LORD more and be a little more paitient.  And learn how to spell.  Heck...there are a million things that I need to do.  But don't worry about me.  I shall be okay.  I am reading the Bible more on a consistent basis.  Like everyday!  And I see the difference in my attitude and my status updates.  I already told myself in a journal entry awhile ago that I was gonna be more positive and write positively, cause words have power.  If I am ALWAYS mad at some little thang...enough to write a status report about it...hmmm, maybe I DO need to look into that.  Change.  Write more when I am happy.  Focus on GOD.  Love my family.  Love my life. 

Thank you all for your concerns.  And your prayers.  Please know that I am a work n progress and GOD ain't through with me, yet.  If you stick with me...you can say you knew me when...when I was crazy...now I am still crazy...just crazy for the LORD and the LORD has changed me.  Saved me.  Loved me.  Held me.  Made me.  Halleluyah. 

Bless me indeed and enlarge my territory.  Keep your hands on me and keep me from my enemies so that I may cause no pain.  Halleluyah.  Amen.

Keep it Natural.       

It's been foreva eva since I've been on this site, but the same could be said for you too...:P

About a month ago, I got into (what I thought ) was trouble with my boss, and started mumbling about how I was gonna get fired, and my boss was gonna kill me...I look up and two of my kids are almost in tears, because "they didn't want me to die..."

I still vent when I need to, but I make sure to follow it up with words of power- folks listen CLOSE...

ahhhh...thank you for that.

Sometimes I think we are related!!! (ltm) I SO feel you on that sir. and I understand what you mean! I think it's funny how people like us are really UP but when we're down... man... but be encouraged Unc that I think we're on the right track!!!

Danielle, I need a nickname to call you. I am starting to like "UNC". It had to grow on me, but, yea, I am starting to like it. I think we are alot alike. I can tell in your comments and messages. And if you are like me and I am like you, then we must both be the BOMB! Thanks for all of your help and support. I truly LOVE you and am happy that we are working together. Let's change the world.